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Grief, loss, and saying goodbye [image]( Note: I sent this out a little while ago but there was a technical glitch when it was sent and it had the wrong subject line. So I'm re-sending it here. Hi, Friends! He went back to his mama full-time last Monday. We knew this day was coming (though we didnât know it would be Monday). Weâre so thrilled for how hard his mom worked to get to this place and weâre so grateful for how much she loves him. At the same time, our hearts are all torn up inside. Yes, this is the ultimate goal. Yes, this is the best case scenario. Yes, we want to be so happy for him and his mom â and we are! But thereâs also a lot of loss and grief at our house right now. It feels so quiet. We see reminders of him everywhere we turn. The tears just fall at random times as we process him leaving. Heâs been every bit like our own son for close to 9 months, so his absence leaves a huge hole in our home and hearts. Sweet baby boy: We love you so much. You will always hold such a big piece of our hearts. Getting to love you as our own on behalf of your mama has been one of the greatest honors of my life. I would do it all over again in a heartbeat. Youâve brought so much laughter and smiles and joy into our home. Youâre resilient and brave. I believe God has such great big plans for you and your future. We will always be here cheering for you, praying for you, and loving you deeply. You helped our hearts be beautifully broken and we will never be the same because of loving you. Youâve forever changed our lives, little boy. We love you, sweet Champ! Something I've Been Pondering... As we've gone through the last week, I keep thinking of this quote: âI could be sitting on the sidelines, in blissful ignorance of the brokenness that surrounds me, enjoying the whole-ness of a sweet and sheltered life. Missing out on the beauty of breaking off pieces of my heart and my life to make another whole.â - Jamie from @fosterthefamilyblog I look at this picture. I think of the last almost 9 months of loving this little guy. I think of the roller coaster of emotions weâve experienced. I think of the brutal and the beautiful. I think of how our whole family has changed because of loving this little guy. I think of how we be gotten to see God show up in profound and powerful ways on our behalf. And my heart swells with gratitude. We didnât sign up for foster care because we are strong or brave, but because we were called. Because once we knew the need, we couldnât stay in our safe bubble of comfort, we had to jump out and say yes â even when it terrified us. And I reflect on this past year and I can say with 100% confidence: God has been so faithful. In the many moments when it felt overwhelming and exhausting, He was faithful. In the times when we felt lonely and scared, He was faithful. Through the many unknowns, He was faithful. I donât know what God is calling you to. I donât know what you are walking through. I donât know what scary thing you might be facing that you know you are supposed to say âyesâ to. But this I know: God is faithful. He has been, He is, and He will be faithful. Rest in that, lean on that, and take the next step. [In this week's episode of The Crystal Paine Show](, Jesse and I sit down and talk about what this last week has been like for us. We open up candidly about how the grief of saying goodbye to Champ has profoundly impacted us. We share what has been helping us, how we are processing this loss, what has been helping us, and how we are holding both grief and gratitude at the same time. And because we didn't want the whole episode to be heavy, we also talk about our road trip to Kansas, chocolate collagen, a book I'm reading to Kierstyn, a project Jesse recently finished, and a sweatshirt I am loving. [Listen to this podcast episode here.]( I hope -- no matter what you are going through or where you are in life -- that this episode encourages you! He is faithful! -Crystal P.S. The two questions weâve gotten the most the past few weeks are: Will you foster again and will you still get to have contact with Champ and his mom? 100% yes, we plan to foster again. We will take some time to process and grieve, but we are already praying about who God wants us to say yes to next. And yes, his mama has graciously expressed her desire for us to still be in his life. We donât know what that looks like for sure, but this week weâll be babysitting for him some while she works. Iâm so grateful for this, both for his transition and for our transition. Thank you for your prayers and the way you have cheered us on in this journey. It has meant so much. And thank you for praying for Champ and his mama â especially right now. We are deeply, humbly grateful. [Unsubscribe]( Money Saving Mom, LLC 2020 Fieldstone Parkway, Ste. 900 #313 Franklin, Tennessee 37069 United States
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