Stoicism, an ancient school of thought, urges us to own the immediate present. [View in Browser]( [Esquire Sunday Reads]( [Remember to Live]( Remember to Live Each night as I put my three-year-old son to bed we read our books, we sing our songs, and I tell myself that he may not survive to see the morning. When I revealed this to my mother the other night, she said it made her sick to her stomach. âHow could you do that?â she asked. âHow could you possibly think like that?â She sat on the couch in my living room, the light from the fire roaring in the fireplace danced across her face as she looked at me with earnest concern. I sat on the hearth and took a beat to digest the moment. Then I inhaled deeply, and started to explain. About two and a half years ago, I became fascinated with the philosophy known as Stoicism, an ancient school of thought that urges us to own the immediate present, and in doing so, to achieve true freedomâand, perhaps, even happiness. [Read the Full Story]( [MORE FROM ESQUIRE]( [It's Time to Drink Champagne Like You Drink Beer]( It's Time to Drink Champagne Like You Drink Beer A while ago, I made a decision: Champagne was appropriate for breakfast. Not every day. But on the weekends? Or for room service? Yes. Scrambled eggs with toast and bubbly, followed by a coffee to even things, is an easy way to choose happiness in the a.m. This habit soon poured into other parts of my life. Sunsets on the beach. Bubble baths. And, eventually, on the couch with a bag of chips . . . just because itâs Wednesday. There are some awesome things that you can have too much of. Butter. Drugs. The sun. Champagne is not one of these. Once you start weaving it into your drink-ing life, something clicks: I can have it this good all the time? [Read the Full Story]( [Sex, Love, & Marriage Behind Bars]( Sex, Love, & Marriage Behind Bars I first heard about the trailers, prison vernacular for conjugal visits, on Rikers Island. It was 2002, I was twenty-four, and I was awaiting trial on murder charges. The guy the next bunk over in the communal dorm knew I was facing a lot of time, even if I didnât know that. I was delusional in the beginning. We all are. The bunkmate had just finished a dimeâa ten-year sentenceâfor assault and was now in on a parole violation for breaking curfew, caught on a tip called in by his wife. Still, he loved her, and he loved telling me about going on conjugals with her up in Auburn, a maximum-security prison. It wasnât just about the sex, he said. It was forty-eight hours of freedom, or close to it. Most of New Yorkâs maximum-security prisons had them. They werenât trailers, not anymore, but modular homes. It was, the fella in the next bunk told me, an opportunity for good times, good eating, and good sex. An incentive to stay out of trouble in the hope of experiencing a touch of love. There was a hitch: Your partner had to be your legal spouse. Close family members were also eligible, of course, and this was really the objective of these visits: to build and maintain better family ties. But that was beside my bunkmateâs point. If I was convicted, he said, he recommended I put an ad on one of those prisoner dating websites (Prison Pen Pals, Write a Prisoner), find a woman, fall in love, make it official, then head for the trailers. [Read the Full Story]( [80 Best Holiday Gifts For Dad That'll Arrive in Time]( 80 Best Holiday Gifts For Dad That'll Arrive in Time Dad, in the simplest, plainest term, carries, whether heâs the have-it-all kind who emanates pure, unconcentrated coolness, or just a solid average Joe whoâs been giving you hand-me-down baseball gloves and shotgun driving lessons since day one. After all, dad is someone we can turn to for wisdom and consolation. Whatâs the best whiskey for sipping on the rocks? Ask dad. Whatâs the niftiest gadgets to handle? Ask dad. Whatâs the most foolproof grooming regimen? Ask dad. Hence come his birthday, Christmas, anniversary, or any gift-worthy situation for dad when you find yourself stuck on finding unique gifts for dad thatâll match his wit. At Esquire, we know a thing or two about dads, and weâre more than prepared to tell you what to gift the man who probably likes to sit back and watch you scramble for a gift: A new luxe staple to add to his closet, a fail-safe tech upgrade heâll actually appreciate, an affordable but still extraordinary watch, a last-minute subscription he canât turn down, and all the more. In fact, weâve got 80 best gifts for dad below that can prove you as the best kid he could ask for. [Read the Full Story](
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