Rob Delaney Knows Grief—and Rage

People won't always think of me as the dad whose child died. They think of me that way now, maybe. But that won’t last forever. And then one day when they don’t, I’ll wonder, Why aren’t they thinking of me that way anymore? We were looking for an old cell phone charger the other day, and my oldest son found one of Henry’s tracheostomy tubes. This custom-made, state-of-the-art thing, exactly made for his little throat. It was like a little magician had poofed into the room. I thought, Look at that thing that tortured us, tortured him, but also helped him breathe. It was a heavy moment. And I loved it.   [View in Browser]( [Esquire]( [SHOP]( EXCLUSIVE [SUBSCRIBE]( Impress your wife this holiday season. [Here are 70 gifts she won’t return.]( [What I’ve Learned: Rob Delaney]( [What I’ve Learned: Rob Delaney]( People won't always think of me as the dad whose child died. They think of me that way now, maybe. But that won’t last forever. And then one day when they don’t, I’ll wonder, Why aren’t they thinking of me that way anymore? We were looking for an old cell phone charger the other day, and my oldest son found one of Henry’s tracheostomy tubes. This custom-made, state-of-the-art thing, exactly made for his little throat. It was like a little magician had poofed into the room. I thought, Look at that thing that tortured us, tortured him, but also helped him breathe. It was a heavy moment. And I loved it. [Read More](   [The Oath Keepers May Be Going to Jail, but the Anger that Moved Them Remains Free]( [The Oath Keepers May Be Going to Jail, but the Anger that Moved Them Remains Free]( On the plus side, this may enable the Justice Department to move up the Jan. 6 food chain. [Read More]( [The Best Electric Toothbrush Is Reasonably Priced and Ridiculously Easy to Maintain]( [The Best Electric Toothbrush Is Reasonably Priced and Ridiculously Easy to Maintain]( How am I just learning about the hum? [Read More](     [The Esquire Editors' 10 Favorite Gifts of the Year]( [The Esquire Editors' 10 Favorite Gifts of the Year]( Gift giving season is in full swing, and while that means you'll hopefully receive a few good presents yourself, it also means you can no longer ignore the undeniable truth that you have to start holiday shopping. Not sure where to start? Well you're in luck, because here at Esquire, we are gift-giving pros. [Read More](   [The Best Furniture and Home Sales Happening Post-Cyber Monday]( [The Best Furniture and Home Sales Happening Post-Cyber Monday]( There's a CB2 sofa, a Casper mattress, and even a customizable pillow all on discount. [Read More]( [The U.S.'s Victory Over Iran Was Exciting as Hell—And Just the Beginning]( [The U.S.'s Victory Over Iran Was Exciting as Hell—And Just the Beginning]( The Americans beat Iran to book a place in the World Cup knockout rounds. Can they give the mighty Dutch a game in the Round of 16? [Read More](     ["Talk Dirty To Me": A Bedroom Challenge]( "Talk dirty to me,” Karen whispered, her brown eyes on the bar table between us. Aside from being articulate, eccentric, and funny, she was a stone knockout; for the last month, I’d been scrambling just to feel worthy. Now she’d upped the ante. “Come on,” she repeated with a grin. “Say something dirty.” Ooh, I said to myself, this is gonna be great. I’ve never done it, but I bet I’m good at it. I quickly thought through some naughty openers—discarded one as crassly vulgar, tried on another, almost blurted out something smarmy. And still she was waiting—holding my hand, smiling. [Read More](   [Win a 4-Night Getaway to Rincon, Puerto Rico ($2,000 Value)!]( Follow Us [Unsubscribe]( | [Privacy Notice/Notice at Collection]( esquire.com ©2022 Hearst Magazine Media, Inc. All Rights Reserved. Hearst Magazines, 300 West 57th Street, New York, NY 10019