The Man Who Comes Into My Home at Night

I was burglarized four times in college. Anxiety and panic attacks set in. And then one night the man who haunted me returned. [View in Browser]( [Esquire Sunday Reads]( [The Man Who Comes Into My Home at Night]( [The Man Who Comes Into My Home at Night]( It wasn’t long after Ryan moved in that it happened again. This was the sixth home he and I had shared–there were three dorms in college, then two houses off-campus and in the four years that we lived together, we were burglarized four times. Years later, in our shared apartment far away from college, it seemed that either our bad luck had returned, or worse–whoever’d been breaking into our homes had finally come back to finish the job. I woke to the sound of thrashing outside my bedroom. The doors were locked, of course–they always were. I’d sometimes drag my heavy metal weight bench along the floorboards in front of them. But tonight I hadn’t done that. With enough of a push, the flimsy lock that held the doors together would unlatch right away. And from the sound of it, I was seconds away from three or four burglars blowing those doors down. Fight or flight kicked in the moment my eyes opened. I flung myself towards the doors, pushing my upper half forward so forcefully that I felt as though my right shoulder popped out of its socket. Wincing in pain, I snared one of the doorknobs and pressed the weight of my whole body against the cheap fiberwood paneling. “What—what th-the hell is going on?” I yelled. [Read the Full Story]( [MORE FROM ESQUIRE]( [OBJ on NFL Fashion, His First Creative Director Gig, and the Power of Silk Pajamas]( [OBJ on NFL Fashion, His First Creative Director Gig, and the Power of Silk Pajamas]( Odell Beckham Jr. just announced he's joining the likes of Chris Paul and Olympic gold medalist Katie Ledecky by partnering with Finnish health technology company Oura as an ambassador. 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