I Am Falling Apart

I knew what to expect. Both of my parents had experienced retinal detachments, so I was terrified but prepared. The warning signs sounded vague: “Be wary of sudden bright flashes or arcs of light,” doctors told me. In reality, it was more like hot white blaster fire ricocheting off the hull of an Imperial light cruiser. “Be wary of any new ‘floaters,’ ” they said. When the floaters came, they were like black, stringy Dementors descending unexpectedly over my field of vision. I’ve always seen the world through this perspective—everything filtered through what I watched, heard, read, and loved. But consuming pop culture like the world was ending when it actually was wasn’t so much fun. [View in Browser]( [Esquire]( [SHOP]( EXCLUSIVE [SUBSCRIBE]( [I Am Falling Apart]( [I Am Falling Apart]( I knew what to expect. Both of my parents had experienced retinal detachments, so I was terrified but prepared. The warning signs sounded vague: “Be wary of sudden bright flashes or arcs of light,” doctors told me. In reality, it was more like hot white blaster fire ricocheting off the hull of an Imperial light cruiser. “Be wary of any new ‘floaters,’ ” they said. When the floaters came, they were like black, stringy Dementors descending unexpectedly over my field of vision. I’ve always seen the world through this perspective—everything filtered through what I watched, heard, read, and loved. But consuming pop culture like the world was ending when it actually was wasn’t so much fun. [Read More](   [Lewis Hamilton on Winning Races Again and Making the Formula 1 Movie with Brad Pitt]( [Lewis Hamilton on Winning Races Again and Making the Formula 1 Movie with Brad Pitt]( The seven-time F1 champion talks candidly about battling through his winless streak, calling bullshit on the F1 screenplay, getting out on the track with Brad Pitt, and how he’ll know when to walk away from racing. [Read More]( [Now’s the Time to Get Your Hands on This Made-in-the-U.S.A. Tee]( [Now’s the Time to Get Your Hands on This Made-in-the-U.S.A. Tee]( Crafted at Buck Mason Knitting Mills in Mohnton, Pennsylvania, it’s an all-season essential. [Read More](       [Tim Walz’s Crack About J.D. Vance’s Couch Hits Right Where Republicans Deserve It]( [Tim Walz’s Crack About J.D. Vance’s Couch Hits Right Where Republicans Deserve It]( The Tone Police are back on a rampage. During his introductory speech on Tuesday, vice-presidential candidate Tim Walz threw out a wisecrack about his Republican counterpart, Senator J. Divan Vance, referring to a persistent Internet meme about JDV’s purported attraction to living-room furnishings. This immediately prompted the March of Pecksniffery, much of it from our newly arrived Republican allies, who have not yet realized that “all hands on deck” does not mean “all hands to the bridge.” [Read More](   [How House of the Dragon Can Still Avoid a Damning Fate Like ‘Game of Thrones’]( [How House of the Dragon Can Still Avoid a Damning Fate Like ‘Game of Thrones’]( The reaction to Sunday night’s season 2 finale felt eerily reminiscent to that of its predecessor. So where does the prequel series go from here? [Read More]( [The 15 Best Casual Blazers to Elevate Your Everyday Look]( [The 15 Best Casual Blazers to Elevate Your Everyday Look]( Here's to the hoodie's snazzy older brother. [Read More](     [This Smart Thermometer is My Dummy-Proof Kitchen Essential]( [This Smart Thermometer is My Dummy-Proof Kitchen Essential]( As a pretty damn good home cook (read my bio and weep), one of my biggest kitchen fears is cutting into a piece of meat that's undercooked, raw in the middle. On top of the self esteem hit, whatever cooking I have to do to correct the error will frequently result in a dry piece of meat that's lost half its flavor. Using a meat thermometer can help ensure I don't take a steak out until its ready, but it can't prevent me from overcooking—or under-resting—the cut of meat. This is where Meater swoops in to save my ass. [Read More](   [ESQ Membership]( [LiveIntent Logo]( [AdChoices Logo]( Follow Us [Unsubscribe]( | [Privacy Notice]( | [CA Notice at Collection]( Esquire is a publication of Hearst Magazines. ©2024 Hearst Magazine Media, Inc. All Rights Reserved. This email was sent by Hearst Magazines, 300 West 57th Street, New York, NY 10019-3779