Moomins creator Tove Jansson's gorgeous letters to the love of her life; the science of when time really began; Audre Lorde's poignant poem "The Bees"

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[Grammy Award-Winning Jazz Vocalist Cécile McLorin Salvant Reads Audre Lorde’s Poignant Poem “The Bees”]( [blacknature.jpg?fit=320%2C480]( Bees hum the essential harmonics in the symphony of life — crucial pollinators responsible for our planet’s diversity, responsible for the flourishing of the entire food chain, [responsible even for Earth’s resplendent colors](. It is hardly a wonder that they have long moved poets, those essential harmonizers of human life, to rapture and reverie. Emily Dickinson reverenced [“their velvet masonry,”]( Walt Whitman their “their perpetual rich mellow boom” and “great glistening swelling bodies,” and Ross Gay their murmured assurance, [“saying everything is possible.”]( And yet these tiny, tenacious creatures, older than us by millions and millions of years, now face the very real possibility of demise by colony collapse disorder — a direct consequence of the destructive choices we have made as a species. It is a terrifying thought, the possibility that the honey our ancestors took from them to tuck into the tombs of Egypt — a substance so miraculous that its deliciousness remains unspoiled by the passage of millennia — might outlast the entire species that makes the miracle. It took another of humanity’s great poets to insist that against every choice of destruction, there is always the choice of creation; that against the extractionist, there is always the generative, against the exclusionary, always the inclusionary and the generous. [AudreLorde_RobertAlexander.jpg?resize=680%2C454] Audre Lorde (Photograph: Robert Alexander) Half a century after Bertrand Russell observed that [“construction and destruction alike satisfy the will to power, but construction is more difficult as a rule, and therefore gives more satisfaction to the person who can achieve it,”]( Audre Lorde (February 18, 1934–November 17, 1992) — a human miracle who catalogued herself as “black, lesbian, mother, warrior, poet” and who became Poet Laureate of New York in the final year of her tragically truncated life — draws on these miraculous creatures for a delicate and powerful illustration of this counterbalance in her poem “The Bees,” originally written in 1974 and posthumously included the excellent anthology [Black Nature: Four Centuries of African American Nature Poetry]( ([public library]( pollinated by poet and essayist Camille T. Dungy. At the fourth annual [Universe in Verse]( Grammy Award-winning jazz vocalist [Cécile McLorin Salvant]( — whose unexampled one-woman orchestral storytelling masterpiece [Ogresse]( a lyrical meditation on race, otherness, belonging, and becoming, is one of the most original and breathtaking works of art I’ve ever seen — brought Lorde’s poem to life in a spare, stunning reading: [5c3f5e80-3043-41f8-9147-603fabe6f437.png]( [2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.png]THE BEES by Audre Lorde In the street outside a school what the children learn possesses them. Little boys yell as they stone a flock of bees trying to swarm between the lunchroom window and an iron grate. The boys sling furious rocks smashing the windows. The bees, buzzing their anger, are slow to attack. Then one boy is stung into quicker destruction and the school guards come long wooden sticks held out before them they advance upon the hive beating the almost finished rooms of wax apart mashing the new tunnels in while fresh honey drips down their broomsticks and the little boy feet becoming expert in destruction trample the remaining and bewildered bees into the earth. Curious and apart four little girls look on in fascination learning a secret lesson and trying to understand their own destruction. One girl cries out “Hey, the bees weren’t making any trouble!” and she steps across the feebly buzzing ruins to peer up at the empty, grated nook “We could have studied honey-making!” For a conceptually kindred forgotten treasure, reach back across the epochs to George Sand’s [only children’s book]( — a bee-inspired parable about choosing generosity and kindness over cynicism and destruction — then join me in supporting Cécile’s soulful art [on Patreon]( and revisit Lorde on [kinship across difference and the importance of unity in movements for social justice]( [the indivisibility of identity]( and [the courage to break silence](. For more highlights from [The Universe in Verse]( savor James {NAME}’s [humanistic-scientific meditation on light and time set to song]( astronaut Leland Melvin reading [Pablo Neruda’s love letter to the forest]( astrophysicist Janna Levin reading [“Antidotes to Fear of Death”]( by astronomer and poet Rebecca Elson, Marie Howe’s poignant poem about our inter-belonging in an [animated short film]( and a [breathtaking choral tribute to Rachel Carson’s courage]( by the Young People’s Chorus of New York City and composer Paola Prestini. [Forward to a friend]( Online]( [Like on Facebook]( donating=loving Every week for fourteen years, I have been pouring tremendous time, thought, love, and resources into Brain Pickings, which remains free and is made possible by patronage. If you find any joy and solace in my labor of love, please consider supporting it with a donation. And if you already donate, from the bottom of my heart: THANK YOU. (If you've had a change of heart or circumstance and wish to rescind your support, you can do so [at this link]( monthly donation You can become a Sustaining Patron with a recurring monthly donation of your choosing, between a cup of tea and a Brooklyn lunch.  one-time donation Or you can become a Spontaneous Supporter with a one-time donation in any amount. [Start Now]( [Give Now]( Partial to Bitcoin? You can beam some bit-love my way: 197usDS6AsL9wDKxtGM6xaWjmR5ejgqem7 [When Did Time Really Begin? The Little Loophole in the Big Bang]( [briefhistoryoftime_updated.jpg?fit=320%2C504]( “Time says ‘Let there be,'” Ursula K. Le Guin wrote shortly before her death in her splendid [“Hymn to Time,”]( saluting the invisible dimension that pervades and encompasses the whole of life: “the radiance of each bright galaxy. And eyes beholding radiance. And the gnats’ flickering dance. And the seas’ expanse. And death, and chance.” But what does time say of the time before there was anything to let be, the time before being? “The concept of time has no meaning before the beginning of the universe,” Stephen Hawking wrote in his groundbreaking 1988 book [A Brief History of Time]( ([public library]( — a work of such far-reaching and lasting impact that it awakened the popular imagination to the fundamental physics of reality and, thirty years later, inspired [one of the most beautiful and poignant poems of all time](. In the foreword to the final edition of the book published in his lifetime, Hawking quoted Richard Feynman’s exultation at how fortunate we are to live in an age when we are still discovering the fundamental laws of nature. Inevitably, this means we are still understanding the nature of time. As we come closer and closer to accepting that [the universe might be not infinite but finite]( and that Einstein’s relativity, [as revolutionary as it was]( has important limitations, the notion that time began at the Big Bang singularity has begun to dissolve into something more complex — and more thrilling: We might say that in the beginning of time, there was no time; but we might equally say that in the beginning of time, there was only time. (Borges touched the poetic truth behind and before the scientific fact in his [exquisite refutation of time]( In this invigorating PBS segment, New York-based Australian astrophysicist Matt O’Dowd delves into the science and splendor of when time actually began and what that illuminates about the nature of a universe which contains everything we know, including the mind that does the knowing, yet one which we are still getting to know: [66778d48-b351-479f-9cdf-f2df6751d613.png]( In this next segment, O’Dowd considers the possibilities, as presently understood, of what might have happened before the Big Bang: [c243143a-be32-49da-88a3-87537cadaf73.png]( Complement with science historian James Gleick on [how our cultural obsession with the scientific impossibility of time travel illuminates the central mystery of consciousness]( then treat yourself to Nina Simone’s [meditation on time]( and poet Marie Howe’s [stunning ode to Hawking’s singularity](. [Forward to a friend]( Online]( [Like on Facebook]( [I Long to Read More in the Book of You: Moomins Creator Tove Jansson’s Tender and Passionate Letters to the Love of Her Life]( [lettersfromtove.jpg?fit=320%2C481]( “All things are so very uncertain, and that’s exactly what makes me feel reassured,” [says Too-ticky]( trying to comfort the lost and frightened Moomintroll under the otherworldly light of the aurora borealis. A decade after Tove Jansson (August 9, 1914–June 27, 2001) dreamt up her iconic Moomin series — one of those [works of philosophy disguised as children’s books]( populated by characters with the soulful wisdom of The Little Prince, the genial sincerity of Winnie-the-Pooh, and the irreverent curiosity of the Peanuts — she dreamt up Too-ticky, the sage of Moominvalley, warmhearted and eccentric and almost unbearably lovable. Too-ticky came aglow in Jansson’s artistic imagination from [the same spark that galvanized Emily Dickinson’s poetry]( — her adoration of the woman who was already becoming the love of her life. [ToveJansson1956.jpg?resize=680%2C510] Tove Jansson, 1956 (Tove Janssons arkiv / University of Minnesota Press) At the 1955 Christmas party of Helsinki’s Artists’ Guild, Jansson found herself drawn to the record player, impelled to take over the evening’s music. Another artist — the Seattle-born Finnish engraver, printmaker, and graphic arts pioneer Tuulikki “Tooti” Pietilä — was impelled to do the same. They shared the jubilant duty. I picture the two of them at the turntable, sipping spiced wine in rapt, bobbing deliberation over which of the year’s hits to put on next — the year when rock and roll had just been coined, the year of Nat King Cole’s “If I May,” Elvis’s “Baby Let’s Play House,” and Doris Day’s “Love Me or Leave Me.” I picture them glancing at each other with the thrill of that peculiar furtive curiosity edged with longing, having not a glimmering sense — for we only ever recognize the most life-altering moments in hindsight — that they were in the presence of [great love]( a love that would last a lifetime. Tove was forty-one, Tooti thirty-eight. They would remain together for the next half century, until death did them part. The tender delirium of their early love and the magmatic core of their lifelong devotion emanate from the pages of [Letters from Tove]( ([public library]( — the altogether wonderful collection of Jansson’s correspondence with friends, family, and other artists, spanning her meditations on the creative process, her exuberant cherishment of the natural world and of what is best in human beings, her unfaltering love for Tooti. What emerges, above all, is the radiant warmth of her personhood — this person of such uncommon imagination, warmhearted humor, and stubborn buoyancy of spirit, always so thoroughly herself, who as a young woman had declared to her mother: [2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.png]I’ve got to become free myself if I’m to be free in my painting. [ToveJansson_SmokingGirl_1940.jpg?resize=680%2C827] Tove Janson: Smoking Girl. Self-portrait, 1940. (National Galley Finland / private collection) In a soaring letter penned in the first days of their first summer together, while Tooti was on mainland Finland for a residency and Tove was home on the small island in the Borgå archipelago where she spent her summers, she writes: [2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.png]Beloved, I miss you so dreadfully. Not in a desperate or melancholy way, because I know we shall soon be with each other again, but I feel at such a loss and just can’t get it into my head that you’re not around any more. This morning, half awake, I put a hand out to feel for you, then remembered you weren’t there, so I got up very quickly to escape the emptiness. And worked all day. After sharing the mundanities that make a shared life — mundanities radiating her sweetness of spirit: reports of bringing home some mud for the swallows from the nearby bay, reports of using up all the raisins, “all our raisins,” on a batch of the home-brewed Finnish kilju — she loops back to the bittersweetness of Tooti’s absence: [2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.png]It was a fine night, calm and quiet, and I still couldn’t take it in that you weren’t here, kept half turning round to see what you were doing or to say something to you. […] Wherever I go on the island, you’re with me as my security and stimulation, your happiness and vitality are still here, everywhere. And if I left here, you would go with me. You see, I love you as if bewitched, yet at the same time with profound calm, and I’m not afraid of anything life has in store for us. [ToveJansson1.jpg?resize=680%2C658] Tove Jansson (University of Minnesota Press) The following day — a gloomy, rainy day, with the encircling sea “grey and austere” — Tove tells Tooti that while hauling stones to build a fire terrace, she began conceiving of a new Moomin story — “a story about the sea and different sorts of solitude.” A decade later, that idea would become Pappan och havet, literally translated as “the father and the sea,” but published in English as [Moominpappa at Sea]( — the most soulful and contemplative of the Moomin stories. (How much of the history of art and science is strewn with the private storms and solitudes of its creators, invisible to the eye that beholds the resulting creation — the echoes of [Herman Melville’s unrequited love]( in Moby-Dick, the shadows of [Ernst Haeckel’s staggering loss]( in his scientific obsession and its artistic halo, the ruddering role of Rachel Carson’s love for Dorothy in [the making of the environmental movement]( [moomin_papanochhavet.jpg?resize=626%2C975] Moominpappa at Sea, 1965 But even this grey solitude is aglow with Tove’s love for Tooti. In a passage from the same letter that begins with a poetic piece of koan-like logic, she writes: [2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.png]It always tends to be easier to go than to stay — even if you’re happy being with the one you are leaving. […] Waiting is a sheer pleasure when it’s for you — and the calm awareness that all I have to do is add together a number of days, and we’ll see each other again. After a disarming veer into the pragmatic thoughtfulnesses that sweeten a shared life — “Thank you for the fly swatter my darling, it seems extremely effective.” — she adds: [2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.png]I’m so unused to being happy that I haven’t really come to terms with what it involves. Suddenly my arms are heaped full of new opportunities, new harmony, new expectations. I feel like a garden that’s finally been watered, so my flowers can bloom. A week later, as Tove patiently awaits her beloved but misses her more and more achingly, she echoes philosopher Simone Weil’s observation that [“those who do not love each other are not separated”]( and writes: [2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.png]Summer is moving on through its stages and sometimes I feel so melancholy that you aren’t here. But perhaps it’s good to have a bit of distance between us. I know now that I couldn’t possibly be more attached to you, in a harmonious and happy way that can only grow stronger and more tender. But I’ve known that all along. The following week, she composes a gorgeous letter evocative of Kahlil Gibran’s wisdom on [weathering the uncertainties of love]( a letter aglow with the sentiment at the heart of every marital vow: [2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.png]Beloved, Now my adored relations have finally gone to sleep, strewn about in the most unlikely sleeping places, the chatter has died down, the storm too, and I can talk to you. Thank you for your letter, which felt like a happy hug. Oh yes, my Tuulikki, you have never given me anything but warmth, love and good cheer. Isn’t it remarkable, and seriously wonderful, that there’s still not a single shadow between us? And you know what, the best thing of all is that I’m not afraid of the shadows. When they come (as I suppose they must, for all those who care for one another), I think we can maneuver our way through them. And then, in one of those touching Toveisms, she pivots on a happy heel from the breathtakingly romantic to the pragmatically, affectionately blunt: [2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.png]If you write in Finnish, please could you be a dear and use the typewriter; your handwriting’s a bit tricky sometimes. She then pivots back just as joyously: [2e292385-dc1c-4cfe-b95e-845f6f98c2ec.png]I miss those quiet June days when you were piecing together your mosaic or whittling away at some knotty bit of wood and it was possible to listen, contemplate and explore how we felt. […] Tuulikki, I long to read more in the book of you. I long for you in every way, and I’m more alone with all these people around me than when I was wandering about on my own, thinking of you. [too-ticky.jpg?resize=680%2C340] She ends the letter with the first tentative drawing of Too-ticky, which she describes to Tooti as “a new little creature that isn’t quite sure if it’s allowed to come in!” before signing the letter “Your Tove.” The strange and wondrous creature did come in — into Tove’s heart, into the Moomin universe — and never left. [ToveTuulikki.jpg?resize=680%2C503] Tove Jansson and Tuulikki Pietilä, later in life, near their island home. (Tove Janssons arkiv) Complement this fragment of the wholly [Letters from Tove]( magnificent [Letters from Tove]( with other masterpieces from the canon of great love letters by luminaries of creative culture: [Emily Dickinson to Susan Gilbert]( [Vladimir Nabokov to Véra Nabokova]( [Iris Murdoch to Brigit Brophy]( [Hannah Arendt to Martin Heidegger]( [John Cage to Merce Cunningham]( [Kahlil Gibran to Mary Haskell]( [Robert Browning to Elizabeth Barrett Browning]( and [Oscar Wilde to Alfred “Bosie” Douglas](. 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